What you really want is to create beautiful, deep, heart-connected connections with people, where you can explore romance if it feels right and move at the pace that feels right for you, right?
You trust your body and your gut when it comes to your business, but it feels like the compass gets a bit wonky when it comes to your personal relationships.
You wish that it would be simpler, that you could just do what felt right to you in the moment in your other relationships, but you are deeply in love with your partner and really don't want to hurt them or create more upset between you...
The problem is, it doesn't really work that way...
Unfortunately, many of the things you are doing in an attempt to avoid hurting your partner or negatively really just kicking the can down the road—and making it worse!
(The can gets beat up the farther down the road it gets kicked, right? And progressively less usable to hold liquids?)
Or another way to look at it is this:
It's a lot like someone buying something they can't afford on credit and thinking that it solved their cashflow problem.
It makes it look like things are okay in the moment, and it actually does relieve the pressure of not having the thing they need in the moment...but when that bill comes due, they end up in a worse situation, paying an even higher price, right?
You're too experienced to naively do that when it comes purchases, but when it comes to polyamory, the reality is, you're a bit like that 19 year old in college using the credit card to pay their bills. They think they're being responsible by paying their bills, but they're missing some key information and not looking at the big picture.
The same thing is happening for you in your relationships.
You think you're being kind and loving and building a safe foundation, but you don't even know there IS an "interest rate" let alone how much it is or how to avoid it.
You think that the agreements you're making and the ways you're slowing down for your partner are you "being responsible" but what if it's you silently racking up debt?
Hint: It is.
And you're not alone in being confused about it.
When you watch Zero-Drama Poly™ you'll hear me talk about how I got off the exhausting teeter-totter of polyamory—where every step toward your truth is followed by a step back into someone else’s comfort, and how you can too.
In this training I'll help you recognize and identify the exact patterns that are keeping you and your partner cycling between feeling upset that you seem to be at an impasse and being afraid to lose each other.
This is how you unlearn the invisible patterns that keep you saying "okay" when because you're afraid to say no, telling yourself "later" when you really want it now, and constantly wondering if whatever you want to do is "worth" the conversations or upset you'll be having afterwards.